i dont know if everyone heard but i had a mass near my kidney that on the 8th of June was given a clean bill of health....well the doctor got a second result back, and NO ONE told her that it was in my file. she was going over the results due to the fact it was probably caused by my motorcycle accident March 1st and found the file...well I got word on July 1st that the results came back as a rare cancer called Spindle Cell Sarcoma. the mass is small still, not on my kidney that they see and hasnt grown in 3 months in size. just im 37, have a 8 yr old and scared to no end. my emotions are all over the place, i do have medical insurance but i dont see the oncologist until Friday the 8th. hes the head of oncology at a very good hospital one town over. he also resided at Mt Sinai in NY and is top in his field. its the WEEK wait and thats only for him to discuss whats next....i even saw my ex girlfriend (the one i was seeing a year+ ago when i was going through some tough times with my wife) and just completely lost it with her and just couldnt control my emotions (in a sad way, not anger). i just kept apologizing and telling her how much she had ment to me over the years....just lost it. i dont know what to do, im scared, ive got a lot going on in my life, my own business and so much going for me right now...and THIS happens. Anyone here have any good support groups or anything that might calm me down?? youre all my friends here and need some support...anyone? i know Recon is going through some stuff with his kid....i sometimes thing im being punished for having problems at home and seeing my ex.....and im not a religious person. thank you all for reading this long story and it means alot that you guys are here. thank you!!